okay so kicking the Ralts journal
that flailing was giving me tumours
man I need to redo my CSS this is getting so boring
Last night I couldn't sleep
again ._. dontfallasleepinclassnooooooo
but I started this random train of thought about
one member of our class ditched because computer and stress
and she's going into business
that's not relevant actually
but it was about her going and doing something completely random
all this 3D and animating feels more like a hobby thing to me, something I don't need that half-diploma for :I $10k for a diploma. Another $10k for the graduate diploma. Noooothanks
I keep getting distracted in class - by the commissions
. I have sketchbooks dedicated to them. A little tiny A6 one for composition thuimbnails and an A4 for refining those thumbnails.
And other things.
I was thinking
what I'd do when I got out of school.
I mean, I have no training for any other work. The only job I've had is on-and-off contracting for the Traffic Design Group, which is mostly one-off jobs that involve counting. That's all. Counting. ._.
Never managed to get any other work.
Other than commissions.
And then the other issue comes in that I'm getting money from mum so I can eat, and then I'm on student loan for living and course costs - which I have to pay back. That's $20k I have to pay back to theeemmm aaaaa
Well. That's manageable.
Except for the fact that my course ends February. At that point I won't be a student. My student loan will terminate. My hostel contract will terminate. I will get out of school and immediately have to move home.
I can't go back to Tauranga.
I did want to go to Wellington and do some 3D work, but the keyword there is 'did'. I don't any more. Lame.
Since school will end the same date my hostel contract ends, I don't have time to look for a job. I'd need to have money to move somewhere else immediately.
A group of friends is planning to rent a house, there'll be about five of us to share the costs so it shouldn't be too difficult. It may even drop the cost of rent down $50 which would be awesome.
The whole point of this journal is to say that
I won't rip myself off with point commissions like the ones I still haven't finished
(I haven't forgotten the paid commissions from before either!!)
because the 40 point ones were the equivalent of 50 cents.
In future I'll hike the prices up and start saving so I can immediately move somewhere else and be able to afford it. :U
goddammit I'll still be 18 whyyyy
We're talking about maybe
$15-ish for a bust/headshot (according to complexity) like Old Man Garchomp or something
and upwards of $60 for a background piece? Something.
is this ok ;-; would anyone buy the arts? or
will I be homeless
this would be good practise
if I want to go freelance at any point
attempting to bust out a full BG piece in two days
could be fun
TURN UP YO' VOLUME AND DEAFEN EVERYONE WITH CONGAAAAAAA